Trepaneringsritualen

All sorts of thoughts fill my brain; I find myself constantly thinking about nonsense or logic, whether or not it makes sense… It is obvious that I feed on many things. I manifest in my mind without accepting that any of them are right or wrong. Nevertheless, the different ideas in my head keep clashing, over and over again. Being caught up in various ideas may increase productivity and creativity, but it seems to me that it multiplies mistakes. I have always been of the opinion that one cannot find the essence of oneself without making mistakes. Of course, there should be a limit to mistakes and errors. I guess we cannot live by making mistakes all the time. I guess the result of being under too much influence and making mistakes will become clear with frustration. I think paradoxes are also beautiful; for example, I was influenced by eastern mysticism for a long time and I didn’t eat meat for a long time. I didn’t eat packaged products. But I got angry, I got angry about different things and I broke my diet. Then I decided to go back. I felt very bad.

I continued to be inspired by the streets, by simple television programs. My goal was to forget some of the nonsense I was doing. I was trying, I still don’t even know if I was succeeding. At least I’m trying. By chance, a professor doctor caught my eye. This woman, whom many people made fun of, was, in my opinion, very right about some things and she was telling the truth. Even if I refuse to eat meat, I couldn’t ignore her opinions (she strongly advocates the consumption of meat and natural fats) and her other opinions (her war against packaged products and sugar). Still, in such matters, people deliver when they are told something (about their dislikes or habits). I listened. I tried to understand.

Anger management has become a necessity for people today. Everyone can and must have different ways of venting their anger. It is not even possible to expect anything from a human society that spews hatred on everything that is against its own way of thinking, let alone those who do not respect the other/others; some of the points I was stuck on in a biography I read again attracted my attention. Even though I have never owned a Mac or an Apple product in my life, I was curious about the story of Steve Jobs. Halfway through the 500-odd book, I could not remain indifferent to some chapters. I read it with curiosity. The journey of a barefoot, counter-revolutionary, bearded, Lsd-addicted hippie who progressed to Apple CEO increased my interest. Thanks to this book and the narratives, I saw again what ambition and ego can do. At the same time, its necessity and unnecessity… I must say that I saw and heard ‘ashram’ for the first time for some reason and with embarrassment. I learned and researched it briefly thanks to this book. According to ‘wikipedia’, in Sanskrit, they are places where sages live in peace, detached from the hustle and bustle of the world. Usually the locations are in forests, mountains, etc.

Then I thought that we all have an ‘ashram’ goal. Modern but unnamable people today who are not happy in any way, cannot be made happy, are restless, do not know what they want.

Do we really want this, have most people asked themselves these questions, I think yes. But I’m still not sure about the choice. I won’t say human beings, it can be gendered, the human race is living in a time when it doesn’t know what it wants. Books are read for 40-50 pages or not, TV series are watched, ready-made thought patterns are talked about. I don’t even need to list them. We all do hundreds of these things at one point or another. Nevertheless, we also have a desire for the unknown. What we don’t know arouses suspicion, until we know. After living and experiencing some things, they no longer have a secret, they lose their specialness. This time we want to move on to something else. One ends and another begins; until it is known and revealed, isn’t it?

It’s a work that may not be easy for some to listen to; a name or a project that includes noise, death industrial, ritual, dark ambient, black metal and so on. Thomas Martin Ekelund, a one-man band, plays music with a lot of feeling. Yes, it’s out of the ordinary. But it’s good. I think even those who are far from the genre can give it a chance. If you really want to be isolated from society and problems, put this album on your ears and listen to it at the highest volume. Let them see how useful noise can be. I would like to leave you and give the floor to Trepaneringsritualen. May the darkness and more unrest be with you. Most beautiful and special of all, I think you should set up one of your own ashrams. This album can lead the way. ✪